No more waiting up till midnight.. to see if he comes home..

wantingparadise @ 2004-08-03T16:50:00

2004-08-03T20:52:26Z

Friends Only! leave me pretty notes.. and maybe i'll add you. ;)

[Banner by 'breathnomore'. Thanks sweetie. =)]

wantingparadise @ 2004-08-01T00:14:00

2004-08-01T04:17:16Z

so get this...

im at my aunts house right now babysitting for my cousins. and its like 12:15, so i decided to get on the comp, since the kids have been asleep for a while...

well, i im typing on the keyboard right, when i notice a piece of paper on the slide out thing next to the keyboard...

it says "Holli journal Livejornal.com/users/wantingparadise"

mhhm. freaky? no idea how she got it? so im guessing im gunna start having to watch what i say?!?!

ha.. im kinda tempted to take it and rip it up. ;)

but i dunno.. how long has she had it? is she reading what i type?

eh.. this is just wrong.

knock off his glasses... teach him to tamper with the cloning process.

2004-07-31T22:31:56Z

ok, so dont ask what the last post was for?! lol. i dont even kno?

yesterday was um... boring? gr.

i had stayed up till 4:30 that morning.. talking to David online. =D we had such a great conversation. sending pics and what-not. I Love That Kid!!! =)

today.. i fiiinnnnaaalllly got a chance to sleep in!!! YEESSS! lol. then i went to Kristina's... Sasha was there. =) i love her hair! its sooo cute! then Gui finally came... i dont mean to be rude.. but he isnt very cute.. and he doesnt talk? well.. annyyways.

I'm getting a ride with Jessie to school this year! woo hoo!!!! no more bus!!! =D

um.. we're going to my aunt and uncle's house today to give me cousin his belated birthday presant.. and i dont really have much else to say? so, buhbye.

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-31T01:07:00

2004-07-31T05:07:55Z

lala

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-29T16:51:00

2004-07-29T20:56:46Z

OMFG!

We got my daddy a truck!!!!! =D

EEEEEK!!!! im soooo excited! its a Nissan Titan! sooooo peeeerrrty! i cant wait till he gets home to see it!!!! =D

got my schedual today.. wanna see it?

1. Wells

2. Thomas-James

3. Rodriguez

4. Peck

5. Dixon

6. Dunn

I have an awesome schedual this year! Great teachers.. and im not running all over the place! yey! =D

if you go to WSHS, let me kno if we have any classes together. =)

Well, i gotta go.. got stuff to do tonight!

buh bye!

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-28T17:46:00

2004-07-28T21:47:21Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELANIE!!! =D

Big 15! Woooo! lol.

I You!

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-28T08:44:00

2004-07-28T12:48:48Z

pa.. pa.. palease do it! =) lol. if you dont.. i'll devolop a st.. st.. stutter
.. ;) hehe.

01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. colour eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-27T23:39:00

2004-07-28T03:40:46Z

I went to run calls with my daddy today! =)

it was somewhat fun? lol.

i climbed on two roofs =O

climbed up a slanted ladder.. and a ladder that was straight up bolted to the wall..

oh boy! i learned a lot about a/c too.

well, im sleepy! good night. =)

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-26T18:25:00

2004-07-26T22:29:02Z

holy cow!!!!

i feel sooooo livejournal literate!! AHHH!!!!!

WOW! i did danielle's and david's from scratch today! =D check 'em out!

punkrockgurl965 <-- Danielle's

acoust1cl0ve <-- David's

im sooo proud of myself! yey!

oh! and i did some of melanie's. however, a lot she did herself. [Melanie - i figured out how to make it overlap! =D yey! lol.]

If you want me to do yours, let me kno!

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-25T20:58:00

2004-07-26T00:59:26Z

oooh! i feel soo LJ literate! =D hehe. check out my links! they flip! woo!

if you want me to fix yours up, let me kno!

just give me details, and if im not busy [which im usually not] i'll go to town on that bad boy! [haha! im such a loser! but i've always wanted to say that phrase..? whatever!]

=D

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-25T18:27:00

2004-07-25T22:33:30Z

ok. so that post is done.. overwith.. and forgotten..

Lets see.. I Went Shopping Today!!! WOO HOO! lol.

only for like.. 3 hours.. but still, i got a lot of stuff! =D

well.. not exactly a lot, but im sooo picky.. so its a lot for me. ;)

i got 4 pairs of jeans.. and a reallycute skirt! eek! lol.

-In other news:

Monday [tomorrow] im working..

Tuesday, plans with Brady? maybe. =)

Wednesday.. gotta work in the afternoon.. unless someone can get me out of it? [wanna make plans? =)] then i have to babysit my sisters because my parents are going to see Cats.. dont ask.

Thursday.. open house in the morning.. probably working the rest of the day, unless you wanna do something.

Friday.. um.. oh yea, my sisters open house in the morning.. then probably working.. maybe some shopping with the madre.. unless you wanna make plans..

Next weekend.. no clue what im doing?! probably school supply shopping.. and last minute clothes shopping?

So, if you would like to bea dear, and get me out of working, let me kno! =D

i love this heart thing -> ♥

well.. im out! =) buhbye

♥

done.. finally..

2004-07-24T22:21:38Z

just finished summer reading, A Seprarate Peace.

wow.. Good book. =)

Brady called me today! eek! =D lol. i tried calling Kelly, still havnt gotten a hold of her today...

My day was boooring.. just cleaned.. and read.

Most Awesomest Night Ever! =D

2004-07-24T03:44:19Z

OMFG!!!!!

Kelly and I had THE BEST day... wow!

ok, here goes..

First we were having a good time, walking around, talking about the really hott lifegaurds and what-not.

Well, Kelly and I both remembered this one lifegaurd with star tattoos on his back [Melanie, remember him? really hott? lol] Well, Kelly was all sad because she hadnt seen him in like a month...

Guess what?! WE SAW HIM THERE!!! lol. he is so fucking gorgeous!!! wooow. but biiig time player... oh well! we can still look! =D

and he was flirting with Kelly and what not. i touched him. on the storm. =D lol.

ok.. if you thought that was good... READ ON!

Thrn, we were in the lazy river.. there was this one cute lifegaurd with awesome sunglasses.. so we were smiling at him, and we started laughing because he was smiling back! eek! soooo cute! absolutly GORGEOUS smile!!!!

So... he changed spots in the river.. so we decided to flirt. =P i asked for his sunglasses.. and he let me wear them! woo!

so we went around a couple of times.. one thing led to another.. We had some lovely conversations.. and then, before i knew it, i was running to the locker to get my pencil and a piece of paper to give him my number! =O and to those of you who kno me, you kno that i am NOT one to give guys i dont kno, my actual real number..

However... omg, this guy is almost too good to be true. He wants to take Kelly and I to dinner [and he said he would pay! how sweet!]. Then to see The Notebook. he saw it once already, and admitted to crying! he wants to see it again! on Tuesday.. with us =D he also said he saw A Walk to Remember! what an awesome guy! soooo VERY HOTT!!!!! =D

Ok.. so, im not sure if he's more into Kelly, or me. got to figure that one out.. Kelly didnt give him her #.. so he is going to call me.. he said he would tomorrow, on his break. =D i'll probably ask him if // when he calls.

wow. im like in such a daaaze! he is so fricken hott! soooo nice! he spent his whole entire break walking around and talking to us! uhhhh!!! i like this kid. =D

He's gunna be 17 in like 3 months. he's a juniour [whoa! cant spell that word!] at Edgewater High School [where is edgewater?]. wow. i kno a lot about this kid.

Oh, His name is Brady, by the way. Very hott name.

He's lived in Florida his whole life.He was adopted. he plans on trying to find his birth mom when he's 18. apparently she was only 18 when she had him.. he has this weird german last name that i dont exactly remember. he plays water polo. surfing is like his life, when he isnt working at wet -n- wild. he works soo much! he's been to a ton of places to surf! Australia, New Zealand, Costa Rica [he either has been there, or is going there soon?], and Hawaii. his favorite band is The Starting Line. he said they are like Yellowcard, but better! lol. [i told him i went to the concert! =D] he likes them too! wears clothes from PacSun. loooooovely hair! gorgeous hair!!! lol.

i told Kelly that i would have his kids. =P lol.

he was telling us that we were beautiful.. [aw!] because we were flirting with him, and some guy told him to go meet his boss. so we [kelly and i] were all freaking that he was like, gunna get fired or something! and he was like, "well at least it was worth it." and we said something else and he was like "well, it kind of is your fault, because if you werent so beautiful then we probably wouldnt have met" ahh! so cute! [oh, btw, he wasnt fired. he just had to go switch positions with someone else.]

He had to go over to the kiddie place, and this was after he talked to his boss, so we were freaking out when we couldnt find him. but we did, because we were "stalking" him. we are very good stalkers. ;) lol.

so, when we got there, he was like "yea, i was just thinking about you, and that i might never have seen you to say goodbye." we were like "AWWW!" lol. =D

ok.. i think this a long enough post? lol.

eek! loovely dreams tonight?! hope so! =D

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-23T10:12:00

2004-07-23T14:16:22Z

Wet -n- Wild with Kelly today! Woo Hoo! =D

yesterday was booring....

i find myself constantly talking to more and more people online. i feel so loved! ;)

Going school clothes shopping tomorrow! yey!

my dad is convinced that i kno at least someone everywhere we go. he's so funny.

oh btw, my dad and i made up. i gave him a niice talking to, and he realized that he was wrong. and he appologized.

um.. dont have much else to say?!

time to get ready for wet -n- wild! =D

Buh Bye!

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-22T16:26:00

2004-07-22T20:45:43Z

my dad has serious problems!

so i am very pissed. here's the story.

well he spilled sprite on this binder that he needed.. and he was like just staring at it for like 10 seconds, then all of the suddon he's like "holli! go get me some paper towels!" i was like "whoa.. ok.." when i was walking over to the bathroom he was like "well, will you hurry up!" and i was like "if you want them any faster, go get them yourself!" [not like he couldnt have gotten them himself in the first place.] and so i gave him a whole handfull of papertowels and he started bitching again! "i ask for papertowels and i only get like two sheets!" and he stormed into the bathroom to get some himself.. And i went outside and cried my eyes out.

lately he's been getting so pissed off at me for no god damn reason at all! and im so fucking sick of it!

David, Kristina, and Tim.. Thanks so much!

i needed to vent, and you were there for me. thanks a bunch. i really appreciate it.

i <3 you.

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-22T14:30:00

2004-07-22T18:45:55Z

ok.. so my last update was a big fat no. eh.. anyways!!!

i talked to David last night. what loovely conversations we have. =D

Jay is pissing me off. long story i really dont feel like getting into right now.

My sister got her hair cut today. it looks so cute!

um... we have a meeting today at work! what fun! ;) lol.

I wore my Air Tech shirt to work today. lol. it doesnt look half bad?

um.. i guess i better get back to work?!

Leave me comments to read! =D i loove getting them.

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-21T12:41:00

2004-07-21T17:01:38Z

Ok. i wanted to make a post dedicated to You, the Live Journal Reader. Because you people dont get enough action on other people's juornals.. Unless they say something interesting that you feel like commenting about.

So here goes.

I want you to comment. On absolutly anything you want to.

Rant about how you dont like me. Or how you do like me. What you think about me.

It would show me a lot about what you all think of me. I could always use some critisism.

Comment about whatever the hell you want. And it doesnt have to be about me. If you want to tell me what's goin on in your life, go for it! Im open for just about anything.

I guess you could consider this an advice // therapy // counseling session.

Im here to help if at all possible. Im feeling very giving, and wanting to help. So go for it. if you want.

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-20T20:15:00

2004-07-21T03:16:40Z

New Layout! [i just CANT make up my damn mind! =P hehe.]

WOO! i like this one. =D

Definitely HAVE to get the movie.

LaLa! haha. dont ask.

2004-07-21T02:56:27Z

WOOO! i fiinaly figured how to change around my LJ so i can post in it?! Dont Ask.

haha. looooser.

Anyhoo.... i dont have much to say.

i actually NEED to talk to Jay at the moment. gotta give him a message from Rhonda.. and what's that stupid un-written law that whenever you need to talk to something, they never have their phone on... the world is wierd.

Angie is my hero. So is Rose.

I love these girlies. They are both 40. And having the time of their lives. Both with no regrets. And so full of life. Just bursting with something to say all the time.

Angie's got a husband who is in a great shape [he's a bike cop. use your imagination.] And he is THE BEST man in the whole entire world. NO EXAGGERATION [cant spell?] whatsoever. [isnt that wierd how that all is one word? lol. anyways.] He is sooo wonderful to her. He pampers her to death. And they are soo in love. it is so fucking adorable.. it makes me sick. lol.

and Rose. she is still single. Parties like EVERY night.. [well just about..] lol. She does her own thing with her great group of friends. She is so loyal to all of the people she loves. [including me. she spoils me. =)] my sisters and i call her our "Aunt", even tho she isnt 'blood related'. But she is soo close to us, she could be our aunt.

I wanna be like them when i get old. I wanna party it up, have a wonderful husband who i am completely in love with, i wanna have a grreeaat relationship with all of my family and friends. And all with no regrets. =D

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-19T12:41:00

2004-07-19T16:55:56Z

ok. well, Phil is gone, so i have some time to update with details.

Friday was IOA day with my Aunt. that was loads of fun!

i got a hemp choker & ankle braclette there. oh and also a Hard Rock shirt! it is so fricken awesome!

then friday night we went to Cocoa to meet my mom's cousin, for dinner, because she was in town from N. Carolina.. and we havnt seen her in a long time? anyways, that was a bore. but they had a candle.. and im a bit obsesses with burning candle wax.. [dont ask] so, i found something to amuse myself with.

Saturday.. didnt do much. my sisters' had a party to go to. and my dad and i went to someone's house to do something. [i cant say what. because she might be reading this.]

Sunday.. hung around the house. cleaned a bit. my sisters' friend came over.

The big even for Sunday:

Jay called me!!! =D we had our first long conversation since like 2 weeks ago? sheesh! that's a long time!

He kept telling me that he missed me and he wished i was there... i wish i was there with him too. =/

He's coming back Aug. 11th. he said when he flies in, he might come see me. =D depending on if im out of school by thr time he gets here. and if Rhonda lets him go to my house.

i was telling him what i had done the past could of days.. and i realized nothing really interesting happened.. and i was like "oh never mind.. my life is so boring." and i started laughing. he was like "oh thats alright. i like you just the way you are." hehe. he's so sweet. =D

He also said he wanted to come see me on my birthday. =) even tho its on a Wed. he said he would come and just spend the rest of the day with me. =D

he makes me so happy.

Im working today.. Big surprise right?

still gotta save up my money for my permit.. well.. oh you kno what i mean. i have like $300 left to save. i think? or $200..? something like that.

school starts really soon. this sucks.

um.. thats about all i have to talk about..?

there is still something super big that i need to update you on. but im waiting for a point when there is absolutly nothing to say. because it deserves its own post.. so continue to read about my dull life. =)

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-19T11:11:00

2004-07-19T15:13:28Z

my comp is a piece of crap. so im randomly updating because i havnt in sooo long!

anyhoo! i talked to Jay yesterday! =D

went to IOA with my aunt of friday! =D

David left for Columbia friday.. =/

um.. thats about it? my birthday is a little over a month away! woo hoo!

ok.. more details later. i gotta get off phil's comp.

buh bye!

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-15T14:33:00

2004-07-15T18:50:39Z

aww man. i had a great day yesterday. well.... a great night.. lol.

the day pretty much sucked.. very stressfull?!

but i went to the mall with Kristina last night.. oh boy, was that fun!

i was acting soo stupid because i had with chocolate-peanutbutter smoothie thing, so i was definitely on a sugar high! haha.

i love being stupid with her. =D because she get so embaressed.. its grrreat.

i got a necklace to replace my rusting palm tree. then i also go three pairs of studs for my second hole.

we watched The Breakfast Club.. damn! i loove that movie!!! =D

i fell asleep durring it tho.. Kristina tried to wake me up, but it was no use. lol. when im asleep, its like im dead. you could set off and air horn and i wouldnt wake up.

Lars came over around 10. we hung out by my front door for about an hour and talked.

Today is quite a lovely day. =) no tension.

I went to lunch with my Daddy. we talked. it was nice. =) im suuuch a Daddy's Girl.

going to IOA with my aunt tomorrow. =D woo hoo! but i need to find shorts to go with my bathing suit top...

ha. guess what?! some dumbass plumber turned a switch on/off on the outside of his house, thinking it was a light switch and trying to find out where it went to.. and he spent three days without a/c, just to find out that the switch was to his air conditioning unit.. stupid...

um.. thats about all in my life right now.

there are some other pretty BIG things in the works.. but im not so sure if they will be followed thru with. so i wont update on them just yet. i'll keep you hangin so you'll be compelled to come back and read this useless crap. =P lol.

oh go away.

2004-07-14T18:25:19Z

damnit....

im so fucking sick of selfish people!!!!! grrrr.

i went to lunch with my mom today.. she was on the phone half the time.. she knows we went out, just me and her, so we can have some "mother-daughter" time.. she knows how much i hate it when people are on the phone when im in the car, or spending time with someone.. but NOOO!

she doesnt give a damn! she thinks she didnt do anything wrong.. stupid bitch.

am i the one who's being selfish here? i hope not. all i asked for was a little bit of time.. to spend with just her.. to talk to her. because we havnt talked in soo long.

and then there is this chick, Arleane, who works for my parents. she is a nice lady [twenty something?], however, she is the most selfish, materialized, spoiled girl i've ever met!!!

she irritates the shit outta me! we were shopping one day on our lunch break because she needed a dress. i accidentally bit my cheek one day, on a spot where it was already hurting, and i was like jumping around in pain.. and did she even ask how i was?? NOOO! you kno how when someone is hurt, you usually say "oh, are you ok?" but nooo! she was all wrapped up in this stupid//ugly dress... grrr.

i think i need//want a counsler. i want someone to talk to. i feel like i need someone, who i dont personaly kno, to talk to.. to tell them how im feeling.. and have them tell me how deal with everything..

wantingparadise @ 2004-07-13T21:45:00

2004-07-14T01:47:36Z

Go here: http://www.moveon.org/unitednotdivided/

Read what it's about, and sign if you'd like.

I'm not like gay or anything, but i feel this is very wrong.

I'm just trying to be a "good citizen" and pass the word along.

Eeeek!

2004-07-13T17:00:25Z

ok.. so i wrote a whole bunch of stuff.. and this gay computer decides to get rid of it all... stupid piece of.. anyways..

Guess What?!

My Mommy let me drive yesterday!!! Woo Hoo! =D

when she told me to get in the drivers seat, i asked her if she was on crack?

i pealed out over a speed bump. haha. that was interesting.

i parked. next to a car. lol. yes! ;)

i did a 3-pont turn.. wow. i felt so proud of myself. lol.

i pulled across a bunch of empty parking spaces from one lane to another.. just to freak her out. omg! it was great.

my mom said she could feel the gray hairs growing. =D lol.

sheesh! i cant wait to get my liscence!!! =D and i dont even have my permit yet? lol. woo!